29. The Pursuit of Happiness

I find it difficult to figure out what would make me happy in life.  I have thought living on my own island would be a great thing to do.  I want to live with my wife on this island if I ever get married with maybe a few friends, grow our own food so that it is pesticide free and healthy and have a sailboat to go to shore and pick up groceries when we need them.  It would be a simple life, nothing too fancy.  A small house would do and the peace and quiet of having no one else around would be relaxing.  If we wanted electricity, a small windmill should work just fine.  We would not need to feel guilty about contributing to global warming, slaughtering and abusing animals or destroying the Earth in general.  We would be merely living out our lives in peace and no one could blame us for anything other than standing back and not taking part in the destruction of our world.  I love the idea of having my own island and living like this.  However, it is not an easy thing to achieve.  It would be extremely expensive and I would spend so many years of my life working towards something that may never come true.  There is the large possibility that I would look back on my life when I am old and realize that I have wasted it attempting to achieve something that will forever remain out of reach.